Self-Sabotaging While Preparing for a Performance
T-minus 6 days until my performance at the Columbia City Theater and I'm still not 100% sure what songs I'll be singing AND which ever songs I choose certainly aren't ready. I have a billion songs but none of them are polished off finished. Days go by and I haven't taken the time to sit down and figure out my 3-4 song set list or practice. Why not?
I have an incling that my nervous little tummy was convinced that not trying meant that if it went badly then I could blame it on not practicing rather than just not being good enough. Isn't that strange how we do these things to ourselves? Anyway, I realized I was doing this and I caught myself and got it in check. Instead of thinking about whether or not I would do good/bad, I'm just focusing on the fact that I have some cool songs I'm excited to share with people. They'll evolve over time - my music skills will constantly be changing and improving and everyone just gets to enjoy a little sneak peek into the stage that I'm currently at.
PLUS - how cool for them (whether they know it or not) that they get to be a part of the beginning of my journey. What a fun moment! So I'm off now - time to go choose songs and practice practice practice.
- Chamonix ;)