Feeling Like a YO-YO

Holy cowabunga - trying to please everyone else and not hurt peoples feelings and make sure everyone is equally heard, including myself but it leaves me feeling totally consumed by romantic relationships and confusing hypothetical feelings and I'm like...what the hell, I just want to play music and have fun with it and see progress and move forward and build momentum. I'm a yo-yo trapped between two sides and I don't know how to move forward, escape, improve the situation or even remember that I am a free agent and I don't owe anybody anything. I am free. I must remember that I am free and no matter how much I love and care about other people, I am a human being alone in this world, free to do as I please, stay or leave, do or don't, just do me. I am free to just do me. Why is that so hard to remember/feel?