Saying it out loud is the scariest part. "I am going to perform on that stage." I thought that the world would shake and my friends would smile and nod (but secretly think I'm crazy).
For a year I've known that I want to perform on the Sasquatch main stage but I didn't want to officially declare it to the world because then I would be vulnerable (big dreams are scary because I could fail publicly) and I would be accountable (to myself). It's important to me that I can trust myself. So if I say I'm going to do something, then I'm going to do it and getting onto that stage is going to require a shit ton of hard work. I was scared of signing up for that challenge. But standing there in the crowd, staring up at the stage, I realized I had no choice. I have to be honest with myself. That's something I want. I want to see if I can...just cuz. It would be fun. So I cleared the lump in my throat and whispered my ambitious secret into my friends' ears. Huge smiles spread across their faces. They nodded and hugged me and said things like "I know." and "You're going to be amazing.' and "I'm so excited for that day. I'll be in the front row." I'd gotten so focused on what could go wrong that I completely forgot to consider what could go right. People LOVE seeing their friends go after their dreams. They find it exciting and inspiring. They believe in me and that helps me believe in myself. // Cha

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