I close my eyes and see the universe before me, as if I'm standing on the bow of a great starship sailing through black space. My eyes take in the countless stars as we move forward into the unknown so quickly I almost feel as if we're holding still. I am the figurehead of the human ship, all of my brothers and sisters behind me, following along, maybe grateful to not be the ones out front. They can see each other but for me, I only see space. My senses tell me I am alone on this frontier, pushing through particles into nothingness but I find comfort in the knowledge that my people are behind me and we travel together. I am not different, special or unlike them in any way. I feel all their fears and insecurities. If anything, being out here in front intensifies the shaking in my knees. From time to time, I sink back into the crowd for a moments pause but inevitably, their is a call for someone to raise their hand and come forward. So time and again, I lift my trembling fingers into the air and say yes. Someone has to be at the front of the ship, the first to taste the new air, let it be me.
>> This was my visualization as I played live music during Josephine Silverwolf's yoga class this morning. We were at Ignite Yoga Studio in North Bend, the studio is beautiful for it's simplicity; there is no boutique selling t-shirts or even mats for rent. You walk in and your feet kiss a dark wooden floor, swirling with knotted patterns, colorful beaded tapestries hang on the wall, the air feels like a sauna and soft light slides in through the yellow curtains. Josephine's harmonium is beneath the largest tapestry and I place my guitar beside her. The students place themselves one by one, Josephine's soft British accent fills the silences between the notes that begin pouring from my guitar. I slip into moments of meditation with the music and then snap back to the room, distracted, hitting a note in a different key, forgetting the lyrics. I take a deep breath and draw my attention inward again to that empty place where the music flows freely and with my eyelids lowered I return to the bow of the starship. This is not about me. I am not here to impress people. I don't have to be good. I just have to show up and be willing; willing to lead, willing to go first so that others my follow where they've always longed to go...forward into the unknown.