What’s been the most influential part of your trip thus far? — Q from Trevor
Colors…there is no stress or fear here. Aloneness. Appreciation of the simple pleasures I’ve always loved.
I am living each day free from fear of trauma or being triggered. I’ve been triggered a few times and recovering was rather easy. I realize now how intense it has been for me in Seattle; fear, stress and anxiety. I’ve been sleeping well again, quiet nights in my own bed. I’m more curious about nomadic living, vanlife and unending travel, living a lifestyle that demands less money and less time working. The money goes further here which allows deeper living.
I feel the loneliness. I feel warmed and brightened when I message friends and befriend people here. Conversations are easy with these humans from all round the world. Last night I ate dinner in a circle with Brazilians and didn’t understand 90% of the conversation and had a great time. Total bliss in that moment. A little boy practiced guitar on his doorstep, a toddler played with sparkling fireworks, dogs napped beneath tables, the air was so perfect I couldn’t feel any temperature, I drank watermelon juice, and everyone was in swimsuits and sandy. I feel relieved to feel freedom to live without police and rules everywhere. People keeps smoking beside me at the restaurants and I enjoy the moment of my surprise and then release.
My intuition woke up. I felt called to approach a man on the beach and ask to sit beside him for sunset. Turns out, he really needed a friend in that moment.
I love when my day is filled with poetry, as though it’s dropping out of the sky, a delicate rain of beautiful words caught in my hands and poured onto paper for all to enjoy, for thirsty lips to speak and taste the medicine for the soul.
I am soothed by my return to bohemian beauty and pink peace in which my body relaxes. I feel aloneness here and it’s not a problem. It just is. I know I can reach out to anyone I want and I’ll be received. I am always in good company. Right now it feels wonderful, though slightly foreign, to be alone.
Nature, always nature, I am soothed by the rice paddies and the ocean. I feel a growing desire for my camera, always to be in new scenery. Painting is a portal, zooming me into this one subject. No words, few thoughts, just feelings. Soothing, slow and timeless. Words are a deep dive. Photos turn me outward to appreciate, to engage with the world beyond me.
Love, Cha Wilde