LYRICS
Threw caution to the wind but the wind hasn't blown
I'm pinned to the earth but the earth isn't stone
Don't touch me
Cuz it hurts when he flirts
All I want is to want you more
Hallow heart sink to the core
What is going on
What is going on
All I want is to want you more
Follow heart kink to the floor
What is going on
What is going on
What is this mood right now
Fucking mess of twisted melodies
Raising eyebrows at her
Blazing in jealousies
Sink away, let it be
You do guess I'll do me
Steal your time, Make you mine
You'll be yours and I'll be fine
What is this mood right now
Fucking mess of twisted melodies
Raising eyebrows at her
Blazing in jealousies
All I want is to want you more
Follow heart kink to the floor
What is going on
What is going on
All I want is to want you more
Hallow heart sink to the core
What is going on
What is going on
CREATIVE TEAM
Cha Wilde: Lyrics, Vocals, Mixing
Davey Browne: Guitar, Production, Mixing
JOURNAL
We skinny dipped in the moonlight…full moonlight. The river water was freezing and as my naked body slipped into the pitch black water, mud between my toes, I whispered “water, heal my body”. I had been trembling all day, feeling so disconnected from my husband. I prayed this shock to my system would clear the energy and allow my heart and whole body to open up softly for him again.
Davey and I have spent very little time together in the past two weeks. I think it’s equal and opposite reaction. We spent two solid weeks producing music everyday, right on top of each other. Then I couldn’t breath and flow so I packed up my stuff and spent the past two weeks with friends and in my studio. I wanted to create alone. Making music with another human is chemistry, just like sex. I want variety. I want to do it alone. I need space to explore and experience different energies. I was feeling overwhelmed by masculine energy. and logic. I was PMSing and bleeding and needed sacred woman time alone. I needed to chant like a medicine woman in a field without a guy watching me wondering or even admiring. I just wanted to be with nature, to heal deeply in my spirit and to make songs that only a woman can make. I wrote songs for my grandmothers and the rebellious spirit I love to see in women. I wrote songs about God and the seasons of earth with a hippie-ish friend. I realized I have a wild bobcat animal spirit beside now. Meanwhile, Davey was socializing with friends and working on music wondering where I was. He had been feeling invigorated by our work together and suddenly I disappeared. He didn’t know if we were still making music together. He told me he had been feeling part of a team and suddenly he was wondering if he wasn’t anymore. Space is medicine but also space is distance. We had been feeling so close. Our relationship was healing through our collaboration. With days of distance we were arguing, triggering each other, heavy in our speech and touching into deep wounds we didn’t want to deal with but had to. So we reserved today to make music together. We were uncomfortable around each other all afternoon. We drove out to the countryside, stood under the full moonlight, got really mad at each other to the point of almost breaking up and then sweetly hugged and jumped into the freezing river water, naked. We laughed on the way home and finally felt close again. We took a hot bath together (I got to use my favorite rose soap) and shaved to be all silky smooth. Then Davey cooked shrimp while I wrote lyrics…inspired by the conversation we had in the car. As we had been driving out to the countryside, I’d been typing notes on my phone...every word he said, every thought I heard in my mind. He also said he wanted to write a song inspired by “Dinner” by Oh Wonder. That song captured our pained confused mood. This song we made today is what we came up with. Davey created the beat to replicate the Oh Wonder song and we stayed up in the night to finish the song, hoping to still get enough sleep before snowboarding tomorrow!
