I felt content for the first time in months.
This is so amazing to be in the company of another person.
Since we’ve been in quarantine, I haven’t been in a room with another person doing our own thing on the same vibe.
We in the same room but they tune out. We’re not on the same vibe.
Being alone is starting to feel normal but no, it’s connection that feels good.
This is what I’ve been longing for; being together.
The solution isn’t a possible solution. Brain is spinning tires.
Social media is the best thing I can do to find my friends but it’s not fulfilling.
People who don’t feel like they fit in with their family go to the corner and they read a book by someone who understands them.
Being out of dancing, has led to that extreme lonely feeling. If anyone talks about it, it hurts. I’m protecting the thing that hurts the most. I get a pang of pain when you say the loneliness is coming up. Release.
I’ve almost pocketed up this pain and placed it somewhere in my body, somewhere.
It’s not normal for humans to be in quarantine from each other but we’re adapting.
I’ve felt the absence of ceremony. Oh my god, yes, I’m a human and humans do this stuff together.
Would I come out here and do this stuff alone?
When I’m doing with a friend it’s sacred and beautiful. When I’m doing it alone, because I want to be alone, it’s sacred and beautiful. But if I’m doing it alone and wishing I had a friend with me, it’s kind of tragic. I’m coping. I’m upholding this.
When we’re in ceremony together, we’re giving energy to each other.
Oh thank you, so you do want to be a part of it.
I desire the company of people who want to create the same thing.
Sure, I cans how you but it’s not the same thing as getting lost it in with somebody.
You’re bringing something familiar to each other.
If it feels abnormal to be so alone right now, that is normal. The quarantine has led us to this place of adapting and if you’re feeling the depth of sorrow for missing something, it might human connection in person.
Sitting in silence together.
This quarantine has invited us to put up walls that humans aren’t meant to.
Sharing the same environment, sharing the experience on many levels.
When we were in the water and my feet were in the sand and my thoughts smoked out of me to intertwine with the air.
It was a real cherished time.
Be strong folks, we’re all here.
Take whatever energy we have, put it towards our ceremonies. Sit and feel. Not numbing out.
Learn how to do things by ourselves and comfort ourselves knowing we can share our discoveries and inventions with each other later.
Extra long, extra love.
Have a beautiful day.
LOVE,
Cha + Becca