I’m afraid of:
being heard
disturbing people
making too much noise
taking up too much space
dominating and monopolizing the sound space
being too loud
These fears were so strong they held be down, I let them hold me down, when I was a giggling teenager. Full of energy and life I was and yet I kept my most precious voice locked away. I sang my heart out in the car, alone on my commute to school each day - 1hr each way. When I got to college I felt kind of depressed for the first time in life. Something was missing. I came home for Christmas and sat in my car (I didn’t have or need a car at college), switched on the radio and sang along. There it was!!! My daily hours of singing were missing from my life at college. My 19 year old self realized in that moment the powerful role that singing and making noise plays in my well-being.
Zoom forward a decade and now I’m recording The Cha Wilde Show in my very own music studio in Seattle. I’m there before the sun comes up today. It’s raining outside, trains are going by and I’m singing and making weird animal noises. I’m continuously learning how to produce music, mix songs, perform, teach, speak and deliver beautiful packages of fun inspiring sound to people. I’ve had this vision bubbling in me for a couple years. The podcast; I’ve interviewed people. I’ve explored abstract concepts of creativity. I’ve guided you on production sessions and some of the songs we made on the podcast are going to be on my upcoming album. Look out for ‘Cruel World’ and ‘Hello My Love’. You know the song “Like a Bird I’ve Flown Away” on my album ‘The Sound of Freedom’ was also created on my podcast.
If you’re wondering what I mean “created on my podcast”, I mean you can listen to me creating the song from scratch to finish. I recorded the entire process and edited it down, condensing it into a 1hr magic unveiling song creation experience! SO freaking fun.
Now, I’m nesting in my new studio and clicking ‘record’ on the computer and ‘play’ on myself. Enjoy this new episode of The Cha Wilde Show — it’s got fresh music I’m producing live for you, a deep dive into playfulness and why it’s worth learning how to write happy songs, and a little bit more about those fears I mentioned (the ones about making noise and showing up big in this world).