“Flamboyant Stories” Commentary + Original Songwriting Notes
“Flamboyant Stories” is a song about being a crazy spiritual woman who’s stargazing on a beach, daydreaming about romance, reflecting on how life changes…something like that. If you would like to listen to a full commentary of this song, I recorded an hour long video sharing my songwriting process, the deeper meaning behind the lyrics, and the creative spiritual experience I go through as I travel the world and make artwork inspired by my relationships. The notes below are referenced in the video. They are copied and pasted from the original “Notes” document on my phone and laptop. I used to write songs by hand on paper but in recent years I’ve typing lyrics has been most efficient. The words themselves were taken from my handwritten journal which I would love to photograph and share with you…if I can find the pages I drew from. Unfortunately, I didn’t take a note of it at the time. So this is what we’ve got. Enjoy the stories and feel free to ask me questions. Love & Rainbows, Cha Wilde
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CRY
i feel a lonely aching pain /
i need someone I can dive with
I don't like that to feel healthy I have to live alone.
I’m lonely and don’t feel good with my partner. He won’t change and I’m afraid to go out and live alone without him even if it means I’ll be healthier.
WISDOM
What got me here may not get me beyond here.
The space makes the time together better.
We're the ones pulling back.
All the softnesss is sucked out of it when I'm pushing to do more.
I can let go of the idea that home is in one placee.
Home can be inside myself somehow.
One sided vulnerability doesn't feel good.
It was working of me before but now it's time to do something new and this requires courage. After doing something new I will feel better. I'm the one who is in control of whether I stay or go. In order to go I need to stop forcing trying to make things work and I need to let go of how I thought things ought to be or wanted them to be. In moving forward courageous into something new, I will find a new home that feels good.
POETIC INGREDIENTS
She's the one who has to change.
Taking space hurts because I don't have much time.
I want to bring relief.
my parts really like noone knowing where i am
sunset that turned all the sand to sky
happy place is so far away from home
When the time is good I want more of it.
She's worried that she's ruined
It's painful to look straight at it
LYRICS
follow my lead
Far away from home
nothing will feed
the constant craving
always craving more and wishing i prayed
I turned the sand to sky
Back on my home
Heard the babies crying
Such an awful tone
Of misery
Forgetting love
can fade away In a day
Put down the phone
When the aching pain is lonely
It’s time to be alone
bring relief to people
Walk them all home
whoever’s has changed
Has rearranged
Their way of being
Found a new way of seeing
I’m always craving more
And wishing that I prayed
Now I’m only trying to ruin
Something that I’ve made
I'm the one who has to change
I’m the one who is estranged
I’m the one whose happy far from home
My happy place is far away from home
She wants love
to come back on demand
Doesn’t want to follow a man
let no one know where i am
so I can live without plans
Two feet on the land
I’m sweet in sand
You’ll understand
When you’re space
You’ll realize
it’s not a race
Oh lord oh lord oh lord
I gaze through the haze
On the days when I’m lazy
I sing songs for the sun
I’m a little crazy
pick my words
let them run
In wild minds
that smile blind
When I’m done
ring the bell
free the birds
Who fly in/from hell
sing my spell
break your shell
endlessly dwelling
mindlessly telling
flamboyant stories
In categories
Of life that’s alright
Cuz I’m far away from dancing
Dreaming of romancing
Wishing on the stars
Not on in mars
through broken illusion
I’ve caused a confusion
now i am trying to ruin something i made
Watch my spirit be swayed
***
When the time is good I want more of it.
why does all the fun happens after I go to bed
Us all as one
I’ll Ring the bell
And free the birds
Who sing my spells
They’ll fly from hell
To break your shell
We’ll fly and run
We’re having fun
We’re Holding back no more
The name I’ll sign
On every line
Will cast and bind